I was struck this morning by
—their similarities as I watched
——them walk out to the truck
———to share a ride to work and college.
The dad in light shirt, dark pants
—shuffling along carrying an
——overstuffed canvas briefcase,
———it’s strap dragging on the ground;
the son, dressed in dark shirt, light pants,
—shuffling along in his dad’s wake,
——carrying a nearly identical briefcase,
———its strap, too, dangling along behind.
So much alike, two peas in a pod;
—yet so difference…
The son doesn’t know, but
—his dad is very afraid he has
——failed in his relationship with his boy,
———has blown it as both father and hero.
I wish the dad could have stepped
—outside himself and watched them
——as I did this chilly October morning.
Maybe it would have given him hope
—to see his son, so much like him,
——treading surely in his father’s footsteps.
Maybe he would have realized that
—it’s not too late to mend those holes
——he fears he’s left in the fabric of
———his son’s life, in their relationship.
Though he’s older now,
—that little boy is still right there behind him,
——at least for a little while longer,
———wanting to be as good a man as his dad.
It’s not too late.
—It’s never too late
——to learn how to connect,
———to learn how to love one another.
Please, God, give the dad courage.
(10-3-6)
Your readers love you, and I know why.
You are broken in some way, and that breakage which could have made you bitter and destructive has perhaps made you more compassionate. Or maybe it has made no difference to your compassion but has increased your understanding and empathy.
You see things in such a beautiful way, and react with love.
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Jane, that’s about the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. I’d like to think my own brokenness has helped me to understand others. God knows there’s enough of it in the world to go around. Thank you.
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I’m just giving credit where it’s due. I’m really glad I met you. Am I repeating myself? Not that it bothers me!
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It’s never to late to love one another. Just loved it.
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They are trying to mend that fabric. Especially with our son getting ready to go through a divorce now. Hopefully this will draw them closer together.
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My best wishes with you and your family.
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We never see us how other people do. We’re stuck in our own doubts and fears. Others, they see our strengths, and courage, while we see only the blemishes. Sad. The hope is that one day, even in retrospect, we’ll see the goodness that we did, unknowingly way back when, and that will overshadow the self-deception.
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The question is, will we believe it when we see those things…
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Actually I don’t think it is so much a question of belief. I think it is more a question self-acceptance. Will be ready to see the truth about ourselves, instead of what we’ve painted on the canvas over an over through the muck raking we constantly do to ourselves?
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Plato seems to think we can get there. I hope so. Beating myself up has been one of my favorite pastimes.
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This is an interesting exchange. I know beyond doubt that I have done and do good even wonderful things at times. Yet I still experience doubt and and grief about who I understand and feel i am. My current thesis is that there is nothing I can do to resolve this issue outside of myself. The broken that needs fixing is me. No amount of effort apart from my own soul will remedy my condition. What I have attempted outside myself must somehow be translated and actualized in my own soul.
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So my question to you, oh wise one, is what comes before self-acceptance? What work do you think needs to be done inside?
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We’re never too old to learn new things. Love this.
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Thanks, Colls. (Waiting with baited breath for Chapter 16!)
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So true. So sweet.
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Sometimes I wonder if we ever get too old and set in our ways to learn that truth. I hope not… Thanks, mon amie.
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I don’t think we get too old.
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