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Lent Photo-A-Day (February 10 – March 27, 2016)

Day 4 — Empty


I thought this word might be hard for me to describe, but it took me two seconds to find a picture. I’m not generally a moody person, but I do have a tendency toward — don’t want to say depression, though I reckon that’s what it would be referred to these days though I believe it’s different — melancholy. I go through these times when I feel isolated from life and the world in general. My mother was like that. Can’t put my finger on a specific reason most of the time. It really is just a mood.

This picture portrays it perfectly: alone, no “furniture” to comfort me and make me feel at home, looking outside at life feeling as if it’s passing me by, like living in perpetual darkness… Well, you get my drift. At times like that I just want to crawl in bed and cover up my head, sleep it off. It always goes away eventually. And I have to say that having my diabetes doc add a BIG vitamin D supplement daily after taking 50,000 units a week for eight weeks, really brought me some relief. Artificial sunshine, which leads me to wonder if this is actually what they’re now calling SAD — Seasonal Affective Disorder for it really is much worse in the winter months.

But I’ve learned a trick for handling this “mood” before it sets in full swing. I get out of the house and go visit someone else who is lonely. It’s not the same as getting together with the homies for lunch. I can STILL feel all alone even when I’m with them at times. But there’s just something about “meeting someone else’s needs” that seems to lift my spirit.

I shouldn’t be surprised. I think Jesus said it best when he said: “Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.” (Matthew 10:29) No matter what you do or don’t think about religion, Jesus’ philosophy of life is so spot on. He was a Master psychologist.

If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile you’ll know I struggle and struggle with the idea of faith and its place in my life. But the one part of faith I never struggle with is Jesus. He wasn’t about “religion” and rules or regulations. He was all about people and how they were meant to live in relationship with others. So he is my constant traveling companion on my journey, my pilgrimage, whatever my journey word of the day is, and I think as long as I stick with him I won’t be wandering too far off the path.

Help others and give something back. I guarantee you will discover that while public service improves the lives and the world around you, its greatest reward is the enrichment and new meaning it will bring your own life.
Arnold Schwarzenegger



Picture Credit: mymorningmeditations.com