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For some reason I don’t understand, I haven’t wanted to listen to music lately. I used to enjoy Fimnora’s Monday Music Medicine Show so much. In fact, I had my own Saturday Sing-a-long feature for several months. For years I wanted a car with a cd player in it. Now we have one, and yet I never take any cd’s with me when I go out.
This lack of music caught my attention a few weeks ago when I realized I wasn’t listening to any music that had words. If I did put a cd on while doing dishes, it was mood music. In the car I listen to the classical radio station.
I’ve always listened to music when I “formally” sit down to write. If I really wanted to get lost and energized, I’d listen to the “Conan the Barbarian” soundtrack. I love the varying musical moods on it. If I was feeling romantic, I’d listen to “Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini” by Rachmaninoff. If I were sad I’d listen to the “Schindler’s List” score or “Appassionata” by Secret Garden. But lately I’ve not wanted to listen to anything.
Then this morning in my Daily Calm book I read a quote by Christina Rossetti:
Silence is more musical
than any song.
It gave me pause to realize that while I’ve been sitting here in my “cave” in the silence piecing together these broken pot shards of my soul, I HAVE been listening to music. The music of my heart. I suspect the background noise of life (including the blaring cacophony that accompanies EVERY program on TV anymore to the point you can’t even hear the bloomin’ dialogue over it) has been drowning out my own life’s score for a good long time leaving me feeling nervous and unsettled. In fact, I’d forgotten what my music sounded like. Or that it even existed. I’ve been in danger of losing the melody of my heart altogether.
I had thought this time secluded in the deeps of my cave would drag on and on, that I would become impatient to be done. Impatient to put me back together, no matter how imperfectly, so I could get on with my life. But sitting here listening to the silence I’ve realized this IS my life to a certain extent, this constant adapting and reinventing. And, if I listen closely, I DO hear musical strains carried on the echoes of my movements and sighs, my occasional laughs and exclamations of wonder as I discover something new about myself.
Sitting here I’ve realized my soundtrack is all jumbled from years of busy-ness and self-neglect. I miss the real music of my life before I was so bogged down with the cares of family rearing and what others thought of me. And I’m wondering if it’s time to put a new play list together. I guess I need to start paying attention as I’m cementing these pieces in place. Paying attention to the celebratory pieces as well as the dramatic overtures and the quiet simple strains of peace. Those melodies are all parts of my life the same as those emotions are all parts of my heart.
Tomorrow Bran will be working all day and I’ll have the house to myself. Maybe it would be a good time to lay my artifact work aside and drag out all my cd’s and vinyls and try to find my way back to that time when life was far more carefree and anticipatory. God knows I really could use a good mix of that kind of music as we approach Drollery’s retirement date!
Have you ever stopped long enough to be still and hear what the theme of the music of YOUR life is? No? Try this: (So sorry! Percy made me do this! 😀 )
Which Disney song is your life theme song?
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(This is apparently my song. Bridget and Anna, I can hear you guys laughing all the way out here!. 😀 )
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Picture Credits:
Conan — www.cision.com
Mozart quote — www.pinterest.com
Disney song — http://www4.pictures.zimbio.com/mp/u5E9Ty57fGtl.jpg
No surprises here, my Disney Theme Song is “Colours of the Wind” from Pocahontas. Thanx for the giggle, that was fun.
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Well, we gotta have a little fun now and then, eh? 😀 Shall we start calling you Poca? 😉
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Absolutely NOT! 😂😂😂
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LMBO!!! 😀
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Interesting, I rarely play music at home. In the car I listen to classical music. I do have an eclectic taste in music though except I really dislike heavy metal.
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Beautiful.💜
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I understand. Thats what the “Groove” is about. Your Groove. Your music
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“A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makes” from Cinderella – what else Cheryl, Romantic, oh yes.
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I thought you’d be laughing because YOU know I’m NOT a romantic. Gave that up long ago. 🙂
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You never know when it might come back.
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BTW, Mr. Quantum got “Once Upon A Dream.” How cute is that? 😀
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Well I don’t know… Do the two of you ever waltz together? 😉
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Like Astair and Rogers (NOT)… 🙂
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Who is James Bay? and what Disney movie is this song from?
Of course, the question didn’t have all the options and half them were not really applicable… BUT, if there was a Disney music that sings to my heart it’s:
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No clue what that first song is. Tried to see if it was from a Disney movie but couldn’t find where it was. You know how it is, though. It’s usually teenage girls who set up these quizzies!
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That’s what I figured. Too bad, because there were so many other options they could have included. 🙂
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Was PotC one of their songs on the quizzie?
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No, it wasn’t, but PotC was a Disney movie, so I figured that counted. Besides, not big on the ‘toon’ front here.
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I got ‘Colors of the Wind’ from Pocahontas. Something to do with knowing the name of every rock, tree, etc. I don’t know about that, but I’ve always had my favourite trees, and go back to the same places as they wrap me up in calmness.
As for music, well Queen always hits the mark though I rarely have music playing any more. I’m more likely to surround myself with silence – which doesn’t mean there’s no noise going on around me, just that I filter it out. I’m a daydreamer and always have been. It gets me into trouble sometimes 😂
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I never would have taken you for a Queen fan. 😀 That made me smile. I don’t know. Maybe as we get older we start to WANT to filter out some of that noise? Lord knows we’ve been listening to it long enough. I should be used to the quiet. I’ve been a voracious reader since second or third grade. But I’m finding I can’t read and blog at the same time. So weird.
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Been a Queen fan from the first time I heard their music – I was 13 years old and the sound emanating from my tiny radio was amazing. Sheer Heart Attack – I’ve never liked the track but, my lord the uniqueness of their music captured me there and then ☺
Oddly enough, filtering out sounds is something I’ve always been able to do. I used to get accused of being a bit snooty – when in truth I was daydreaming 😅
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I think that must be a gift. 🙂 Rock on, girlfriend! 😀
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Maybe it’s time to get up and stand still until you start dancing to a music that plays without instruments and without notes, without sounds.
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Spaz out, you mean? LOL Yeah, I could probably do that! I don’t know what possessed me to write that post. I guess it really was that I’ve noticed I’m not listening to it anymore. SO not like me… (But the Disney thing was ALL Percy! 😀 )
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That will work 🙂
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I got The Bare Necessities: Your a simple person you know? While others spend their whole lives wanting more and more, you’re content with the basics. You know that if you just relax and keep a positive attitude, the Bare Necessities of life will come to you. 😄 Cool!!!
Enjoyed your post. I go through periods of times when I don’t want the listen to anything … I just roll with whatever my heart/soul tells me these days….of late, the music of the sea is my theme (playlist)
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I’m not surprised at yours either! LOL That’s you.
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😄😄😄😄
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Well Cheryl – I think it’s time to put on a CD and rock out to something loud! – the Clash – Should I stay or should I go? seems appropriate!
Or put on a bit of Little Richard – Rip It Up!!
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LOL! I’m trying to think of what I used to really rock out to. Oh! There was THIS one! (They were a little younger back then! But then, so was I!!! 😀 )
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Or THESE guys! Saw them in concert! Was SO jealous of their hair!!!
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