I cannot in good conscious post the next Sandbox Writing Challenge without completing the LAST one! But I have struggled and struggled with it. The second question mostly… But here’s the first.
Does seeing problems as mysteries
change your perspective about life?
Yes. I can honestly answer after thinking about it for a week, it DOES make a difference in my attitude about life for the simple reason that it leaves room for possibilities whereas before there was only room for the right answer. It’s a huge relief, actually. As I’ve thought about it this week I’ve found it actually slowed me down somewhat. Enough to keep me centered in the present? Hm… Not quite yet. But at least enough to see some of the scenery I’m passing by. 🙂
But it’s the second question that has really given me fits. Why?
What problems in your life
are you ready to give up trying to solve?
I suspected it was because I’m just so fond of playing victim that I was loath to give up ANY of my problems. And Lord knows there’s a whole host of them.
- Figuring out how his lordship and I can experience “empty nest syndrome” when our adult son lives with us.
- Figuring out what to do to help me not feel like I’m living in a fishbowl in this small house. (Which, in all seriousness, is messin’ with my health.)
- Working out the details about retirement.
- How to possibly supplement our income.
- Yada, yada, yada…
But I realized something pondering this second question this week: I’m not sure there’s really anything I can do about my constantly worrying about these problems.
← THIS JUST DOESN’T WORK FOR ME!
I’ve come to the conclusion that some of us must be born with an extra “worry gene” that makes it part of our personalities. And as I experimented with trying to give up worrying about the whole fishbowl thing this week, it only made the problem ten times worse. I started to feel like an addict trying to get clean. The more I tried not to dwell on it, the more out of control I felt.
I didn’t feel like that was a satisfactory answer for this prompt, but I think it’s truly the only honest one I can give. If trying to give up worrying comes down to being
even more of a basket case in, I’ll take the problems any time because at least that’s a path that’s familiar to me.
So you know what? I think I failed this challenge!!!
(Sorry! Just had to post this!!! 😀 )