What are your three biggest fears?
What about them scares you so much?
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Losing a limb to diabetes.
I am type 2 diabetic, and I have struggled and struggled to get my A1C* down since being put on prednisone for my autoimmune disorder. I know that while it is so high it’s doing damage to my body. I watched a cousin go through the same thing. The doctors needed to remove one of her feet and she chose not to allow them to do that. She died. When I found out I was diabetic that was the first thought that came to my mind. Scared the hell out of me. Still does…
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Falling.
This is a relatively new fear to me. In fact, I never really thought about it at all until I fell after being diagnosed with Myasthenia Gravis and didn’t have the muscle strength to get up. I collapsed going out to the car and we had to call 911. While I was certainly embarrassed (though I shouldn’t have been), I realized for the first time that if I broke anything in a fall I was NOT in a good physical condition to heal. So I developed another fear on top of it — going out of the house! Ended up having to take Xanax for awhile when I went anywhere…
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Blonde men.
This is one of those unreasonable fears that people develop now and then from something they’ve dreamed about. Yep. Years ago I had a horrible nightmare where I was being chased by a blonde man. I sat straight up in bed and was just comatose. His nibs couldn’t wake me up. Wouldn’t even let him touch me. He ended up calling one of my good friends and putting the phone to my ear so I could hear Lynette’s voice. She finally talked me down. But to this day I seem to have an unnatural distrust towards men who are blonde. Go figure!
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Impromptu Promptlings 
Panic disorder is all about fear. I have some that are typical like fear of dying, but others which are being afraid I’m going to scatter into a thousand pieces… which I think is really about losing my mind, my inability to understand simple things. I’m totally phobic of flying – obviously because of the crashing and dying part.
But I also have a terrible fear of people choking (like Mr. Q) when he starts to cough while we’re eating I freak out badly and he has to convince he’s not really choking. I’m also freaked out about losing consciousness which is why I tend not to want to be put the sleep at dentists, and such. Weird.
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Well that “scatter into a million pieces” one is kind of out there, Fim! 😉 Is that anything like losing all my marbles?
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Oh dear. Fear of blonde men from a dream. It reminds me of one of my own but differently. Not a time to tell that story here 🙂 Hope you are adjusting to all the additional challenges and it must be scary at such time. I probably don’t have MG although i’ve had droopy eye, falls etc but everything’s my M.E. and i usually improve again after phases. In previous years I came to find i couldn’t make my legs work well enough on waking but the last year or so of sleeping on a reclining garden chair have made a big difference so i can get straight downstairs now if I need to most days. There’s hopefully lots of good help, information and support for you out there. I’m thinking positive vibes and sending them your way often through my day, every day. With love. xx (hope you don’t mind a European peck with my little kisses)
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Of course I don’t mind! I’m curious about your chair. It’s like a garden lounger or something? One that folds?
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Yes. it’s textoline, quite a strong chair. I bought two for only £50 a couple of summers ago and keep one downstairs and one in my bedroom. The one downstairs can go out on the front yard on nice days. I even used it one night I had a fever in the autumn and shortened what might have been another chest infection for the fresh night air, wrapped up warm, going in and out the house for hot drinks. I slept indoors that morning and felt better sooner than perhaps otherwise. Neighbours worried about me ‘getting cold’ though, telling me I should stay indoors in the warm. It’s nice that they mean well and would help if they could or if needed. I have to make sure they see me often enough not to be worrying about me too as they’ll knock and check I’m ok. I’m not even fifty yet 🙂 I’ve lived around these parts for almost thirty years so very much home and quite like a village at times even though it’s suburban deprived estate territory – almost all social housing. You’d probably need specialist supportive furniture and equipment but it’s not as easy as simply knowing things might be available. …
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Very interesting. I need to learn to think outside the box…
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We do have some weird fears, don’t we? I am terrified of heights. So much so that looking over the edge not only gives me butterflies in the pit of my stomach, it also makes the sole of my FEET hurt ?!
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Oh! I have that whole feet thing in high places, too! What in the world is up with that? They just tingle. His nibs dragged me out on Bright Angel Point in the Grand Canyon some years ago. The path out to the viewing point was only about four feet wide and straight down on each side. He got me out there holding my hand, but I was too scared to walk back — so I crawled! That was a little humiliating!!
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I can so relate to that!!!! I once walked across a viewing bridge over the top of a rainforest. I had to hang on to both sides of the rails. It was the only way out so I had no choice. Took forever – and all I could do was look straight ahead at the tops of the trees. Don’t know what all the other tourists thought about that, I was too busy surviving …
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Was that the big tall trees over on the Perth side where the walkway goes through the very tops of the trees?
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Fears are never unreasonable when they’re your own.
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That is so true, Martha. Other people can be really flip about them, can’t they…
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That’s funny. I have dreams where all these blonde girls chase me around all over the place. I do run very slowly. I don’t remember being frightened though.
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Really! And did you share them with your wife? LOL Opher, you’re such a hoot! I love you! ❤
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