This week’s Sandbox Writing Challenge from Roberta Allen’s book, The Playful Way To Knowing Yourself, asks: If you could foresee one accomplishment in your future, what would you like it to be?
This is one of those thoughts that gets sticky for me. Being a Gemini, I have that wonderfully confusing dual personality. So there’s a practical side of me and a self-centered side of me, and the two seem always to be at war. It’s especially difficult for me when family members ask me what I want for my birthday or Christmas.
The practical side of me stops and thinks of all the things I’d LIKE to have around the house but fall into the incidentals category and I can’t justify spending the money on them myself. New bathroom rugs, for example. What’s wrong with the ones we already have — besides the fact that I’m sick of them!
On the other hand, the self-centered side of me is always up for books or anything to write with! An Amazon gift card suits me fine as I can spend hours on there looking at pens and journals and books.
So this question leaves me in a bit of a dilemma, and the only way I can answer it is to answer for both sides of me…
The practical side of me would say I’d like for us to be able to get the house all fixed
up and sorted out with new carpet, a deck, kitchen/bath overhaul, new roof — you get the picture — before his lordship retires so we won’t be having to spend what little social security money we have to try and take care of those things. Having been through the sorting out and selling of three family homes when our parents passed away, we KNOW what a huge job that is. The last thing I want our kids to have to do is all that fixer-upper stuff before they can dispose of our property when we have gone. To have the house all brought up to date and sound enough to last us the rest of our lives would bring me enormous peace of mind.
Now the self-centered side of me is much more fanciful. There’s nothing in the world she would like so much as to spend a month in the British Isles without having to fret about money. I’ve waited my entire life to get to Ireland, Scotland, England, and Wales, and I’m pretty sure two weeks wouldn’t do it for me. In fact, once I get there, I might not want to come home at all! Then we’d have a problem… My heart has always been there, and that side of me just wants to know why.
And there is one more small complication in answering this question. I was born on the cusp of Taurus and Gemini, so I can legitimately claim to be like Sybil! I have THREE feuding personalities. That third part of me would like nothing more than to see our kids both settled somewhere close and happy. I doubt there’s anything I could do about that, but as we’re approaching retirement age we’d sure love to have them somewhere near us — at least within driving distance — so we could be a part of each other’s lives.
(Now if she has a challenge about a genie in a bottle and three wishes, I’m all set! 😀 )